ponderings

as i get closer and closer to finishing my masters and moving away from washington for the first time in my life, i've been thinking about starting over in a new city. my current plan is to sell all my furniture/tv/etc and move just myself and the pertinent belongings to where ever i end up. since i moved out of my parents house when i was 18 i have had nothing but hand-me-down furniture. consequently none of it is my style, nor does it match. i currently fill all my time with homework which gets really daunting and obnoxious. since the internet is filled with all sorts of time killers and shopping experiences, i have found that i enjoy looking and shopping for interior designing stuff. for the first time in my life i feel like i might be able to buy some items that i actually like and that match my personal style. this is incredibly exciting! i'm definitely into pottery barn, crate and barrel, restoration hardware, ikea to name a few. for ideas i enjoy Real Simple, Better Home and Garden, and maybe a little Martha Stewart.


also taking up my time - planning the trip to Ireland. pretty sure we're staying here when in Dublin. going anywhere with Ben will be amazing, but thinking about going on vacation to Ireland with him soon makes me smile from ear to ear.

I have a wonderful boyfriend!

After being taunted for a while that he had a "plan" for something big and near constant harassment from me he gave it up - when he gets back he's taking me on a trip to anywhere in the world! So now i have to try and figure out where in the world i want to go! Suggestions!?!

Am I a glutton for punishment?

A lot has changed in the past four months. One of the things I've noticed the most, however, is that I will read anything and everything on the 5th Stryker Brigade. Sometimes this is horribly frustrating though, as most things I find to read are news stories about soldiers that have been killed. While the logical part of me knows that my soldier is mostly safe and in one of the best possible positions to be in while in Afghanistan, I can't help but think about what it would be like if something should happen to him. I wonder if part of my semi-morbid fascination in everything is so that I can feel like I'm connected to my partner. I found a blog earlier today that is very well written by an officer in the Army who has been deployed and writes about his thoughts and struggles with life. One entry was about the reunion of soldiers with their loved ones after a deployment and was so well written and created a mental picture that conjured up an image in my head that made me start to cry just from reading it. I think about going to the post deployment ceremony and I just about lose it everytime. With all of that said, we are 1/3 of the way through the deployment and all in all, no worse for wear. My genuine hope is to have the next 2/3 go by as quick if not quicker than the first 1/3. I have some grand plans of things to send him and I'm so busy with school that it's very possibly for the better that he's not here because I wouldn't get nearly as much stuff done. But when it comes down to it, I always want him here. Even when I'm so angry at him that I think I hate him, I love him. And even when I'm angry I don't want him to go away.

Here's to a happy holiday season and a quick 8 more months.

in 13 days i will be in minnesota with ben. the thought of touching him. being close to him. hearing his voice without a delay. smelling him. hugging him. everyday i wake up without him next to me and in 13 days i'll have him next to me. 13 days. 13 days is all i have to get through.

today has been filled with a haircut (yay!), the dog park, a quick shopping trip, and de-dog hairing the house. overall a very good day! i'm amazed at how much hair the dog can lose. every possible area of floor was covered with her fur.

my weekend got off to a very good start by talking to ben online and then on the phone! it was the first time i'd talked to him (in real time) in a very long time and it was so nice. i miss his voice and everything else that goes along with him. 20 days and i'll be in MN and hopefully so will he! i did some web surfing and found a bunch of fun looking things to do while in MN. for example - the museum of medical oddities! or, the nations top rated bar! i'm so excited!

the rest of my afternoon is going to be filled with mowing the lawn, maybe a run, and working on the mini-exam for person-centered. awesome.

ok stomach....

you win. no more pie. i get the picture.

Why?

Why do I make omlettes? The first bite is always good, but it goes seriously down hill afterwards. Memo to self: stop making omlettes.