A lot has changed in the past four months. One of the things I've noticed the most, however, is that I will read anything and everything on the 5th Stryker Brigade. Sometimes this is horribly frustrating though, as most things I find to read are news stories about soldiers that have been killed. While the logical part of me knows that my soldier is mostly safe and in one of the best possible positions to be in while in Afghanistan, I can't help but think about what it would be like if something should happen to him. I wonder if part of my semi-morbid fascination in everything is so that I can feel like I'm connected to my partner. I found a blog earlier today that is very well written by an officer in the Army who has been deployed and writes about his thoughts and struggles with life. One entry was about the reunion of soldiers with their loved ones after a deployment and was so well written and created a mental picture that conjured up an image in my head that made me start to cry just from reading it. I think about going to the post deployment ceremony and I just about lose it everytime. With all of that said, we are 1/3 of the way through the deployment and all in all, no worse for wear. My genuine hope is to have the next 2/3 go by as quick if not quicker than the first 1/3. I have some grand plans of things to send him and I'm so busy with school that it's very possibly for the better that he's not here because I wouldn't get nearly as much stuff done. But when it comes down to it, I always want him here. Even when I'm so angry at him that I think I hate him, I love him. And even when I'm angry I don't want him to go away.
Here's to a happy holiday season and a quick 8 more months.
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